to start things off with this entry...probably you know how it feels to have deep feelings for someone right?the feeling of love, that warm fuzzy feeling you get when being with her, the moments you act stupid, simply because of the fact that you are uber happy at that moment.....simply wonderful isnt it? yeah...of course!

it's like every waking moment...you think about her...every second you are apart....you miss her...everyday you're together...you love her...^_^

it's like what this one movie said..."she's is my other half, together we're whole, so once you know how it feels to be whole you never want to go back to being a half" (well im not sure actually if that's the precise quote but heck i typed from my memory) i was like yeah she completes me...i've never been this happy in my life actually...
the fact that you know that there is this special someone that loves you, that cares for you, that misses you...gives you a reason to live...if possible live the rest of it with her....

it's not my type to make a mushy entry actually...well i did this just because the 28th is a very special day for me..:D

actually this is the first time i've actually "fallen"...it's like i feel different about her...this deep connection..unlike the others...it's irony/coincidence(im not sure because if i say it's destiny it's kinda corny) same star sign, same birth month, same interests, we're like identical inside but different on the outside...like my friend said that she is my female counterpart...and that time i was like "what!? who!?..nahh!"...pretty funny...and look where i am now....i love her! :D
i feel great and now im anout to wrap up this post...ok my final words...

tricia, i love you!!! and happy monthsary! :D

im thinking about changing my blog template...i dunno if i should proceed in making my own...or i'll just rip one out of blogskins

my candidiates in the skins i've seen so far are :
(click the linkis for previews)

kakashi 1
this is a simple hatake kakashi skin...green and has a big hatake kakashi pic with his visible sharingan..kinda cool

gundam seed
a great skin!! a kickass entrance and an animewebsite look....great pictures of the freedom gundam and has it's own avatars and stuff too...im not sure but i might use this is build my own customizations through the great layout...it's because i stink when it comes to layout >.<

sephiroth*
i've used this before and i might use it again....

squall - i need silence *
ok this is a little light for me but it's pretty cool...nice layout with the drop-downs and stuff...another candidate

*BROKEN LINKS (sorry for the inconvinience)

what are dreams? are dreams images that flash before our eyes when we sleep, memories
that play and reflect through our subconsciousness? dreaming is a state of imagining it also serves as a goal one we can accomplish in life....

dreams aren't childish well technically we dream almost every night...we dream of the future what we want...what we could wish for...yeah i dream all the time....
thinking about the past and looking forward to the future....dreaming of my memories and living up to my expectations in life.

you could be the kid who wants everything :"I want everything"
you could be the kid who wants to be somebody: "someday, the whole world will know my name"
you could be the kid who has something to prove: " i have something to prove"
you could be the kid who wants true love: " when will she come?", " when will he come?"
or
you could be like me: " i wanna see my name on the credits of some video game"

yeah i dream that...over and over..something i need to accomplish,something i need to prove something to fuel my faith, my self confidence, well that's my dream

nothing's childish...some of the greatest people who ever walked this earth...dreamt when they were just children...those dreams fueled their minds in helping them achieve whatever they accomplished... my friends dont forget...they went down in history as remarkable beings...

dreams are dreams...no defenite explanation but yeah....dreams are dreams

you can believe in fairy tales...heck nothing's wrong with that...dreaming that your genie will grant you your every wish...saving your damsel in distress...slaying your dragon...saving the world even.it wont exactly have all its "FANTASY" but in a modern sense it is possible...
nothing's ever childish about dreams, they are yours to create and yours to fullfill, no one and i say NO ONE has the right to take that away from you...

later!

My life is in all shades of Blue...

hehe ok...i tested out this "blog this" feature (located on the blogger toolbar) heeh and who better to test this out on than tricia!! :D hehe...i love this blog(and the person) hehe....it's all in blue.....bluish....bluey...(ok dont mind the terms) i know this gal like i know me....and all her posts are meaningful....all her rants are logical...and her template....simple yet advanced....look at all those scripts!! hehe kudos on the template and a-spec points with the posts....keep it up trish!!!

friends are friends...best buds, cliques...whatever you call your's...like i call mine alphabeto..friends are friends...and you cant change that

friends are great to have around...they make us who we are...they comfort us...we really enjoy being with them...everyone has friends...
everyday hanging out...doing happy-nonsense...doing useless fun stuff...hanging out at their houses everyday...every second...planning...playing...all those stuff you do with your friends...irreplaceable...seems like the bonding you guys have...unbreakable...right?..yup it is unbreakable....but it is WEAKENED...or something like that...

now this is where my entry really comes into perspective...

believe it or not i got the idea of writing this entry...when i watched the lion king 3...yeah...a great message of friendship...plus ironically...my friendster horoscope said something about this....

that fine line between romance and friendship

ok...back to the friendship thingy...your bond with your friends...as i said is unbreakable...friends are forever..dont forget that...although it is weakened...especially when your friend...starts having a relationship...a much deeper relationship with someone else...

im not saying that this is a bad thing...as a friend, you MUST be happy for him or her....but sooner or later...you'll realize...things arent what they used to be...
all the attention THAT was focused on YOU...is now focused on his or her special someone...and that's pretty devastating on your part...cuz you were happy and thought that nothing can go wrong, no one can get in the way...but...you were wrong someone DID get in the way...

i've felt it...and it kinda bothered me...but it got better through time...it's like this gap...for now he wants to spend time with her...and only her...and now i can only feel happy for them...

although now it's the other way around...i mean...now it seems that..i dont want to spend time with them...i want to spend time with her...and..only her... so a message for my boys...if any of you ever get to read this...you'll know how i felt before...and you MUST know how i feel now...

this gets better through time...i know...i've seen the final product...ok not exactly the final product but you get my point...


this is all i can write right now...i'll add stuff soon...

Unique, mystical, insightful and beautiful
You are a Snow sprite. Mysterious, and alluring you
naturally attract people to you, your like a
people magnet even though you most often wish
to be alone. Your love for cold climates and
snow has given you an insight into the beauty
few see. While most see bland white you see a
forest or blanket of sparkling white beauty. To
you life is something precious and you intend
to figure out its mysteries. You are very
mature and don't waste your intelligence on
childish games or people not worth your time
which can make you seem arrogant at times but
you are really just intent on saving your time
for better things. Your soul is very beautiful
if not a little shut up, you keep your emotions
hidden from everyone and therefore they don't
know what your capable of. You are a living
fantasy.


.::=What type of Mythical Sprite are you?=::. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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a time to think a time for me...yeah..right now im all alone...listenin to music...thinking about stuff...and the thing is it's my brother's bday...
summer's here, the unbearable heat, all the swimming plans everyone has...hangin out...everyday(everyday!? so why am i here!?).everyone's dream summer is...pure fun...no problems no school just fun

a summer entry....how interesting....

summer's what you want it to be....you can make it :

a.dull - stay home and rot

b.productive - take up summer courses to polish up on skillz *i did that (the very foundation of my skillz)*

c.outgoing - go everywhere but home

d.friendly - best way to do it....GO TO CAMP!

e.adventurous - go places...do stuff...exotic maybe

d.expensive - get out of the country....or buy a country...or just spend spend spend in the country

e.studious - two words : SUMMER SCHOOL

f.profitable - two words again: summer job

g.happy - spend it your own way without the other choices hehe or better yet mix em all up without letter "E"

yeah summer's a great season....well all the greatness it has is the simple fact of not having no school....but summer's not complete with the letters F-U-N...that's simply my way of putting it.although there is a down side to everything...even summer vacation!
i mean a being there is one thing but...knowing that youneed to be there...that's something else...summer'll lose mojo if you're somewhere you dont belong...my point is you don't go somewhere you dont like and stay there for a long period of time right?

in my case knowing where you belong is paramount...
like my parents wanted me to go to the US to work for obvious reasons...but i wanted to stay here....because i know i belong here why? cuz of my friends...what friends? MY FRIENDS hehe...so i did stay here.
the sense of being where you belong...knowing when to blend in helps you adapt but the feeling of you never needing to blend in...yeah...that's a Big thumbs up in life...it's like you can live practically anywhere but you only have one home...and that home is where you ultimately (yeah keep an eye out for the term)ultimately belong...as for the others....SHELTER is the proper term i believe...for short i know i belong here...not the US...

on the other hand, one friend's case is different...he lives south WAY south lyk it takes 3 hrs from our place to their place so he lives there...and belongs there too (duh! his family's there) but he comes back here...stays at our house...he did for almost a month he has two homes in my books...he's sorta ..well not sorta...he IS a brother to me...so...i guess you can have two homes too...he belongs there with his family...and has a spot here at our place....

now my other friend...whom is very dear to me....she (so it's obvious now hehe)almost had to go somewhere far far away(not exactly like star wars but you get my point) which isn't that big of a deal cuz it's SUMMER!! but the thing is...it wasn't her choice which is painful, her dad wanted it...and without letting her decide..isn't fair...lucky thing her mom backed her up and eventually convinced her dad not to make her go...she knew she didn't belong there and her summer was almost ruined cuz of that...and summer's supposed to be for us...kinda. take summer into ur own hands and have fun

as i said earlier...summer is what you make it to be...and the state of belongingness is a big big factor...so happy vacation...i guess...

dunno if im talking in riddles..or anything...it's just something i felt i had to write about....ok till next time

I took this elemental quiz....i actually likedit...it's kinda neat....so uhmm here i'll share it :D

Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.


.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Suikoden II's Riou...bearer of the bright shield rune...uhmmun that's all for now....im bored..

as darkness rises,my sadness reigns
my soul is haunted my anger gains
im so lost waiting for answers of life
ending one's sorrow, my blood on the knife

the fear of death's great,one which i overcome
i embrace my ending moments, and maybe missed by some
a sacrifice to sorrow, my life about to end
for god said not now, and a messenger he sends

it was you of all people, my darkness turns to day
my life now has a purpose,i have so much left to say
about my past and present,my future it can wait
you taught me how to love,you took away my hate

my shattered soul in shadows a light it now bares
completes my inner being, i feel your utmost care
my life i now value, for you are dear to me
i really really love you i wish that you can see

i'll never leave your side, i'll never leave you dear
keeping every promise, holding every tear
you're my source of living, you're my source of might
i whisper that i love you as i hold you close tonight...