been thinking lately....
i think about my past year and all the happy times i've celebrated and bad times i've endured...all the memories...some make me laugh,some make me cry, some gave me a reason to smile, some i try to forget...
ironically i was listening to punk rock songs via my player...one thing caught my attention...it was a random playlist and when "perfect" by simple plan played...i began pondering...

the song it's basically all about acceptance...a dilemma of every kid...especially teenagers...making your parents proud of you and...them accepting the fine person you are now...i know the feeling...it's tough...because sometimes parents dont think of their child as a young adult...they think of him as a...child. daddy and mommy just can let go of their little girl....they cant help the fact that their son has grown...im not entirely sure about this...im a kid myself im no parent.

when you think about it...life is almost all about acceptance (great reian first wait now acceptance!?) really....think about it...ok for seniors, they live in fear of not getting accepted to their college of choice right!? for actors they fear not getting accepted for the part, for athletes they dream to be accepted by the pros, for guys courting they long for the girl's acceptance (that one was for my friend carlo)

in the end during the afterlife we pray for our acceptance in the kingdom of heaven....

we want to be accepted no matter what the cost...it's like everyone wants to be accepted by fame, love, wealth, you name it one person wants it....

more importantly...you would want your friends to accept you for who you are..not to be ashamed or be afraid of you when he sees someone....but to tell the world that your friends...no secrets no shame no fear...

it's like this one movie "guess who" (yeah i've used it twice in my blog) this guy wanted to be accepted by his girlfriend's family...and lied in hilarious ways.....see even movies show this kind of thinking...

think about what i've just written...then irony'll take over...you'll see my point...

that wraps it up....

it's still my summer break, although my friends are all busy with school...im still here doing pre-college tasks and hanging around...watchin anime, reading manga etc. as i was watching anime and playing my games...i've realized one thing....almost all the great warriors of the anime and game world have one thing in common....they have "nothing to lose".

think about it...look at dante from devil may cry...or solid snake from metal gear solid, look at the white cross from weiss kruez, or the early hitokiri battousai(kenshin himura) from rurouni kenshin, jin and mugen form samurai champloo,heero of gundam wing,...the list goes on, no family nor love interest no reason to exist but to fight...it's acts of boldness and bravery without thinking twice...building up character having that unbeatable ego...defining the term "badass".

something that starts out with the words "justice" and "freedom" with a dash of "power"...starting out simple of defining something to fight about and fighting for it until it gets the better of him. sooner or later he has a conflict with himself like kenshin and kira yamato (gundam seed).

others thirst for vengeance...they have nothing to lose because they have lost everything, look at sasuke from naruto as a prime example, his family was murdered and he made it his goal to avenge them...in fact alot of the comic book super heroes thrive for vengeance, spider-man, batman, the punisher to name a few.

others atone for a sin they have commited, like the white cross from weiss kruez, chrno from chrno crusade, and the prince from the prince of persia.

while others have vengeance and atonement on their minds there are some that have conflicts with their past like a broken promise, a bloody past, felony, or being framed, examples of these is zechs marquese(gundam wing), mwu la fllaga, rala kruze(both from gundam seed) and the two swordsmen from samurai champloo jin and mugen.

although they all fight for what they believe in....they fight for their own cause...there are still...that fight because...of the love of it dante, solid snake and splinter cell's sam fisher do it for the passion...

at first, they all seem unstoppable right? no, in fact every man has his weakness...this is where a quote from katsura kogoro (samurai x vol. 1 trust) is appropriate he said, "every sword needs a sheath". the sword is the warrior...and of course the sheath is someone dear to him.

ahh yes...everyone's weakness....love...it can turn the inhumanlike of all creatures soft... even the most deadly and brutal being into a harmless one...kenshin had his tomoe...she made him happy for the first time in his life, chrno has his rosette where she can stop his demonic rampage, recca has his yanagi giving him the will to fight, kira yamato has his lacus cline,she comforts him in his time of need. the list goes on...

love, in it's comforting ways can harness this power that can either give a stronger will to fight or lose the will to fight...either way it brings eternal happiness...

a guy's ego can get the best of him at times....one's rage in fighting can lead him to his paramount...but how can you stop an angered sword once the battle is finished?...only one person has the power......his sheath...

i may be wrong on some parts...so if you have any reactions...good or bad...feel free to leave thins entry a comment...^_^

here's the song every heart by BoA! click! remember right click and save target as....kk..enjoy!

here's some local bands
OPM

Hale - the day you said goodnight

MYMP - tell me where it hurts

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my birthday's today....and of course it's a very special day for this dark, kakashi-fanboy blogger...hehe i feel so relaxed and...yeah of course i grow a year older, i had a party a few hours ago...friends and family came ...there are some that made it, some that didn't, some were early, some were late...some stayed awhile while some had to go....all those aside i had a blast...

it was kinda different this year...i was getting greetings from lots of different people...some i knew some i dont really know...some i was introduced but i dont really talk to them...even the guys i play socom online with IMed me on messenger and greeted me happy birthday ^^

the party was fun, some of my friends came..... Ukab came EARLY around 2 pm we played an hour of Marvel vs. Capcom 2 and i OWNED him completely i love my wolverine, ken and ryu tag team (i only needed ken and ryu though) and Lorenz and Namay came around 3 pm....around 4 pm i was supposed to pick Tricia up from school which was supposed to be me ONLY...but hehe the group had to come with hehe...we picked her up and on the way to my house we overloaded this tricycle....hehe u have me, my bro jr and tricia inside , namay and my other bro dj behind the driver, and lorenz hanging at the back and ukab hanging from the side...i thought the tricycle was goin to give!! we laughed so hard!!! when we got home hehe ok back to our posts we played marvel vs capcom 2 again while others went online and horsed around....well...Tricia had to go home early so I accompanied her home ^_^ (im a nice guy) .....when i got back jenus has arrived and the room was a mess...damn i was gone for 20 mins and that happens....afterwards we started eating we ate alot hehe and uhmm von called to wish me a happy bday...and after that they all left...my friends... i got tired and stuff...i was happy spendin time with triica and my friends...uhmm im kinda tired ryt now so till next tym

someone requested the thousand arms theme song so here it is...:)) ayumi hamazaki's depend on you
once again right click and save target as....

ok uhmm for the past download...sorry some say it didn't work...so here's a new one simpleandclean

all you have to do is right click and save as...kk enjoy
once again it's utada hikaru's simple and clean...long version in english
here's something cute for your enjoyment as well KIRBY!!

all our lives we've been waiting....literally...it's either waiting for the bus, waiting for the bell to ring, waiting to grow up...waiting for summer break...yeah..when you think of it we've waited for everything...funny aint it?

well actually i decided to write about this cuz of deep thinking...and i came out with the realization that..it's pretty funny how much life is about wait...i agree that we should take charge of out own lives but....in the meantime..during our young years when we are still at the grasp of our parents...growing we wait...we wait...we wait and wait...it's like the goal of life is to figure out how to live your life while waiting for death....living is this time gap between birth and death....before any of you contradict to what i have just said..think about it...we're all going to the same path, we all start the same and we will all end the same way...life is merely the long wait and how productive you can be...i don't see the point..but...for now that's the meaning of life right there...we all wait....to meet our maker...

dont get me wrong...i dont mean it as a bad thing or anything...i dont think life is pointless or...meaningless...during our wait...while living...we find out what makes our wait worthwhile...we form bonds by forms of friendship, family, enemies...and loved ones...and they give us the strength to live...
the stronger the bonds the stronger the will to survive is......sooner or later we would realize....that we dont want any of this to end....wishing that death was not real....and that the road of life was a bumpy never ending one...making the wait harder than expected...giving you the urge to live your life to the fullest..
it's either fulfilling a dream, spending it with your loved one, timeless trips with friends, proving something, any reason is a good reason to live...
im only posting from thought...i have no resources whatsoever...everything i've written is my opinion alone...till next post...later

Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.


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the start the june...the very first day marks off my last month of vacation and boy! it's been one helluva day! well, all the problems i had 2 days ago...washed away and...im fresh...im happy im me again! hehe

well yesterday, everything fell into peices...the puzzle that was shattered on the 30th game back togather on the 31st...i was willing to forget the incident and move on...starting anew and filling happy memories as i move...ok, we went to laguna yesterday...we went to this resort..."la vista pansol" hehe we've been going there yearly for almost 5 years now...we like it there...so dad made reservations on monday and totally forgot my sagala on tuesday...no biggie though...although they say that the girl i was supposed to escort was uber cute...that much attention doesn't suit me...
so anyways, we head off to pansol yesterday and spent the night there...we swam and messed around a bit...went down the slide a few times..and swam some more..swam during a thunder storm and..swam a whole lot more...hehe

ok...we had fun and i woke up this morning eagerly counting the hours till tricia's bday party/get-together...i was afraid that i wouldn't be there on time since we left laguna around 10:30 am...and we were supposed to meet around 12:30 noon....yeah plus i had to get dressed and stuff...i was scared till we had excellent timing nearing roxas blvd. around 11:30am i thought that i could still make it...until dad decided to pickup my cousin kevin's suit somewhere in quezon city...i was like "WHAT!?" but couldn't react...we got stuck in traffic we entered the dreaded street known as "ESPANYA" hehe so yeah got to the tailor around 12:30 (the time i was supposed to meet tricia) and...i almost lost all hope till i called her....maybe she loves me or...maybe it's just coincidence but...she told me that they would leave at 1:00 pm...i was shocked!! all the hope i lost returned and we sped through traffic coming home...once on the ground on the front gates of our house i ran towards the bathroom and took a nice fast shower(ok i still took a shower it may have been fast but it was still hygenic...) i ran out put some clothes on "neatly" and called tricia to say im on my way...:)
i did make it in time and...i was kinda embarassed for them having to wait for me but...yeah...i was glad i got to spend time with her 2 days before her special day...like an advanced celebration....so we got to the doughnut shop and we did arts n crafts : hehe...my dinosaur rocked!! and we ate doughnuts and...they were yummy too...ok...after that...we headed home...well tricia wanted me to give some doughnuts to my family (hehe...she did me one better...cuz honestly im not the "pasalubong" kind of guy*im so ashamed*) hehe once i got home they ate em all...and they really liked it...so...hehe wow more cello customers :)).... right now im beat...i barely have my eyes open and ims till in front of the pc chatting and writing on this...maybe i'll rest for a bit...so...anyways my day went great....and wow im happy again :)