it seems like i only get to post once a month nowadays hehe...i've been down in the dumps for a while now...my whole break feels...worthless...
it starts out with me failing both my math class...i did try and i know i tried all i could to pass but it wasn't enough.....i'm just dumb when it comes to math...i stink...
i've been down about that and i kept thinking about it all week but...i only feel more sorrow...it's like im being pulverized inside...
now, this term i get to take up trigonometry and college algebra again....damn....
it doesn't stop there though....
emotionally and personally it gets worse...
have you ever waited for something for so long only to find out that you'll only have to wait longer?....well to keep it simple you wait and build up excitement for something only to get disappointed in the end...you know that feeling right?...
that's how i feel at the moment....
i try everyweek and lately everyweek....it's always a "no"....yeah i do get upset and i try with all my might to keep a positive perspective on things....weeks pass by and still i get a no...it always ends with an "im sorry" and me saying,"it's ok" but why does my heart feel crushed?...
heck for a guy like me...i even cry at night...
i keep wondering why?....or what i have done wrong...or how life's unfair...or maybe it's karma...the thing is what did i do to deserve this?...
i guess ron was right....it's really hard for a guy to show his true feelings.....or is it because i've learned to keep everything to myself...
why do i wait only to end up waiting longer?...it's hard...and it's not exactly getting easier...it gets harder by the day...
as i've posted before....waiting is life's essence....all i can do is wait longer....
i guess i'll have to keep trying then...:)
sorry about the messed up entry fellas...it's just...i had to let it out...even if it were by means of jumbled words
it starts out with me failing both my math class...i did try and i know i tried all i could to pass but it wasn't enough.....i'm just dumb when it comes to math...i stink...
i've been down about that and i kept thinking about it all week but...i only feel more sorrow...it's like im being pulverized inside...
now, this term i get to take up trigonometry and college algebra again....damn....
it doesn't stop there though....
emotionally and personally it gets worse...
have you ever waited for something for so long only to find out that you'll only have to wait longer?....well to keep it simple you wait and build up excitement for something only to get disappointed in the end...you know that feeling right?...
that's how i feel at the moment....
i try everyweek and lately everyweek....it's always a "no"....yeah i do get upset and i try with all my might to keep a positive perspective on things....weeks pass by and still i get a no...it always ends with an "im sorry" and me saying,"it's ok" but why does my heart feel crushed?...
heck for a guy like me...i even cry at night...
i keep wondering why?....or what i have done wrong...or how life's unfair...or maybe it's karma...the thing is what did i do to deserve this?...
i guess ron was right....it's really hard for a guy to show his true feelings.....or is it because i've learned to keep everything to myself...
why do i wait only to end up waiting longer?...it's hard...and it's not exactly getting easier...it gets harder by the day...
as i've posted before....waiting is life's essence....all i can do is wait longer....
i guess i'll have to keep trying then...:)
sorry about the messed up entry fellas...it's just...i had to let it out...even if it were by means of jumbled words
... :( ...
still disappointed p b...? :I