ever since i linked this blog up with my multiply account been lazy to ever post...not as creative as i used to be anymore, things change, people change, i change....might steal a new skin off of blogskins.com in a while to have free time to actually make my own template...

first off, been really feeling uber down, like the feeling of apathy taking over me. it's not because of school, school's great besides the fucked up cisco professor i'm having a blast, not because of friends or anything it's a REALLY discreet family ordeal, if i have the guts i'll post an article about it...

here's the mushy part,

you know the feeling of being down and have it in your heart that ONLY one person can actually become your one true savior? yeah i guess it's about love again right? (told you it was mushy) i've been having that feeling for a while but not that i think of it, i guess it was selfish of me. i know i need her she knows it too, she likes comforting me but, hates it when i'm really down and being all pessimistic, i got so desperate to be with her to the point that i wanted her to lie....

lie.......to be......with me? damn reian what's wrong with you!? well as deep as my heart goes here's a humble apology, hope you get to read this...(other readers if there are any hehe this part stays private)