3/31/2005 09:29:00 AM
By Reian
everything in life has a different meaning, a different purpose, each individual endowed with his and her own destiny...chosen for the sole purpose of fullfilling that said destiny...(i've been watching too much anime)yeah...the cycle of life actually revolves around these principles (that's what i think)...there's a greater purpose for everything. who we meet, what we do and why we do it, what we like...all fragments of a much bigger plan...like turning down a huge offer..just to be happy. choosing your friends no matter what others think, loving someone even when your family disagrees...all a part of a bigger plan...the plan of life...hmm...when you spill milk all over the table, that must have a meaning right?...(ooookaaay *sarcasm*)think about it, why are we here?...why of all people we were made offsprings of our parents? why do we choose our friends? why of all people we were given this special someone to love? why? why? WHY!?see, all our mistakes, all our achievements and all our goals fit into this puzzle we call life. we are who we are, we become who we become, our designs are laid out, we simply build them. like he was destined to become president, the other a doctor they had other plans for their life no one expected them to become who they are now but, we cannot stop our God given plan, no matter what happens... everything and I MEAN EVERYTHING has a higher purpose... no matter how small. a small change in one's path may alter his or her destiny, like sharing a cookie with the wrong or right person may change one's life. joining a character portrayal contest, looking outside at the wrong moment, being online at 3am...i know this totally contradicts with my past posts, as i said, we are who we choose to be...but everything changes, i change aswell. we dream our life and we build through that dream, our actions are always accounted for, everything sequenced. every move, every decision. like hope for example, people at times suffer, they are miserable and unfortunate, HOPE, is a go signal to look at the brighter things in life and make a name for yourself, for with that HOPE an individual fuels one spirit, to carry out is purpose and follow his destined path...I on the other hand have not yet found my so-called "plan"...although im living it right now, i've found that i have a great purpose for living, now it's my duty to live it to its fullest-peace out
3/26/2005 08:45:00 PM
By Reian
starting anew...
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3/06/2005 02:02:00 PM
By Reian
Graduation's coming in.....fast, all the pressure i get from exams, thesis and grades...may have lead me to my downfall, ...my heart is pounding fast...im thinking...is this really it!?It's supposed to be a day of laughter and tears...my part, it's really only a day for tears and parting with people we either have known for our whole lives or...a simple 4 years in time...no matter how long we've known a person, saying goodbye...leaving a place in your heart, a place of memories a place for laughter and a place for tears...is the hardest thing in the world...My story...i know i've met lots of people...miss lots of friends...been to different places and thinking that this is one of those times...like from my childhood...me starting over...a new world... well, back then i thought "heck i've felt it before...no biggie" but NO! it's more than that, the connection i've built among my fellow jamers, it's irreplaceable...the feeling of simply letting all that go away and...never to be repeated again...i can't imagine......I DONT WANT THIS TO END!!!!!!!!leaving my alma matter...i'll leave...a peice of me...a peice of my heart and my soul...no matter what happens to me, no matter where i go, whoever i become...im still a jamer...i'll always be the reian that grew up within the campus of SJA..for four years...that happy guy....always laughing and smiling...the gamer, the "techno-god".the mixed emotions i feel in my last days...are a cluster of feelings...anger, sorrow, bliss...all compiled together in a ball...ready to hurl...im scared...of the outcome too...im not ready...i know im not...im content...im happy...im in love and...i feel great....then...BOOM!!!...im out...starting all over...i dont know if im too pessimistic.....maybe im too blue to think...it's just....parting is TOO soon....
Eventually...we all need to move on...eventually i'll get over this and stop living in the past...always think of the present and most of all the future...because the future is something we should always look forward to....
to all my friends..who get the chance to read this....thank you and...i'll never forget you guys...although grad is still a week away...it's better to do this now before i lose my chance....
i dont like goodbyes....goodbyes are...so painful and heartbreaking....so...for my parting words...instead of goodbye...it's better for me to say "see ya all later" ....later and see you all sometime soon....
long live SJA batch 04-05.....long live!!...
